it's been awhile since my last post. not that i'm busy or anything. i just don't have anything interesting to write about. my life's been pretty monotonous lately. work-home-sideline-gym not that i'm complaining though. i am liking the effect of my workouts. no drastic loss of pounds, i am taking it slowly but surely.

i increased my workout hours and maintained a 500 calorie burn per visit. and i attend spinning classes every friday. and i tell you this is a total burn out session. grabe i thought i won't be able to make it the first time. well after suffering a 2 week muscle pain all over i was able to manage it already. enjoy, classmate ko pa nga si ana roces. hehehe

on work, i had staff issues before the holy week. it was intense i was not able to sleep for two weeks. good that i was able to resolve it sooner. i guess top of mind is what's best for the majority. and i believe i was able to handle it the best that i can.

at the homefront, my kids are overly sunburned due to an outing somewhere in antipolo with their lola's. gosh they got so dark i can only see their eyes.... hubby is undergoing some major crisis in his application for dubai. its been six months and they have been holding on to his passport and documents for no apparent reason. now that he found another more viable opportunity in Qatar he is bent to pull out his application in Dubai. and this spells trouble. sighhh...

sideline is still a good additional income earner for me. although Hagonoy gets flooded when its high tide, i manage to pull it through. my client can get so fickle minded at times. problem is she is not in good terms with her siblings and mom. and this causes trouble for some business decisions they have to make. i am often caught in the middle and i am hating it already. kung di ko lang kailangan ito, i would've resigned by now.

so that's much about my life right now. i think i've lost my creative juices to keep up with my blog. however, i hope i find enough inspiration to get this going.

Maybe it's because you'll burn as many as 500 calories per 40-minute ride. Maybe it's because the expert coaching, motivating environment and unbeatable group energy power you up hills that once seemed too steep to climb. Or maybe it's just because the person you are after class feels so much better than the one you were before did. Whatever the reason, millions worldwide have found a lot to love about the Spinning® program.

The Spinning program is the original and most popular group cycling class. And it's not just because Spinning is an unmatched way to make your fitness goals a reality. With no complicated moves to learn, top-notch instructors and music that begs your legs to pedal, getting into the best shape of your life has never been more fun.

(www.spinning.com)

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just some info for those who got curious in my previous entry. the photo is the equipment that we use in the gym during our spinning class. (just attended one during lunchtime today) there's this point during the class when i would've nearly given up. that's the time when you are pedalling your way uphill and it will take a looonggg time before you can sit back again. feeling ko matatanggal na legs ko kakapedal...hahahaha

happy weekend peeps!

i love this song by natasha bedingfield. i am so lost for words to write. this song just depicts my moment right now.

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I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

i was scheduled to attend another spinning class during lunch break. however, my gym classmate forgot her shoes at the office and we were already in the gym when she noticed it. so i told her that we can go to the sauna instead.

i wanted to go there for sometime already. but didn't have the heart to go in alone. ang dilim kse. (hahaha...loser!) anyway, it was a nice experience pala. grabe sobrang pawis. and sobrang init sa loob. i think i was able to sweat more in such a short time without stressing out my body. so i decided to google up the benefits. and here goes....

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Can a sauna cure what ails you? Well, yes and no. There is absolutely no question that when you go get out of a sauna you will feel better than when you went in. Whether it can cure diseases and induce rapid weight loss, that is a different story.

There is one thing for certain. Saunas are a good thing and the sauna benefits your health in several ways that medicine cannot. So if you are feeling a little down for whatever reason, a sauna will help you feel better.

Benefits of a Sauna
Let's take a look at some of the ways that a sauna can benefit your health.

Steam saunas may help you lose weight. Spending some time in a steam bath for can burn as many as 300 calories. Combine this with a healthy diet and exercise and you’ll be thinner in no time. The steam sauna can also tighten your skin, in that dirty battle against cellulite.

A steam bath will relax your tense and aching muscles. If you have had a long day (or month) at work, toxins can build up in your muscle tissue, causing you pain and discomfort. A steam sauna can force your muscles to relax, almost instantly releasing these harmful toxins. It is also great after a workout. The extra blood flow will speed up the repair of your muscle tissue, thus allowing you to exercise again sooner. Don’t take my word for it. The Finnish Olympic team takes a portable steam sauna to all competitions.

The steam sauna also cleanses your skin. The sweat opens your pores, thus flushing out unhealthy toxins and grime.

Steam bathing provides a cardiovascular workout without stress or strain on your joints. You heart rate will speed up 50-75% in a 20-minute steam bath. This goes a long way to speeding up your metabolism, thus helping you burn fat. It is about the same as going for a long walk. Some people are under the conception that steam baths raise your blood pressure. While this is true, it also expands your blood vessels to compensate.

In many ways the steam bath acts as a giant fever machine. While this may sound like pretty much the worst thing ever. When you think about it, it actually makes sense. You are sick, it is the virus that makes you feel bad. The fever is your body’s way to kill that virus. So, even if you are not feeling sick, getting into a sauna is like a pre-emptive strike against any viruses in your body. ~ http://www.repair-home.com/Sauna_Benefits.html

(by Fergie)

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

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i loveeee this song. as in!

lucky or not?

celebrated our 13th wedding anniversary last monday. i thought inspite of our problems we are doing better this time.

and then....here comes my karibal....beer. and everytime he gets drunk he tortures me with his emotional baggages. i hate it!

we were supposed to take the kids out tonight. but then he went on another drinking spree with a friend...poofff our well-made plans went crazy! and now we're throwing text messages threatening each other to go our separate ways again.

damn. i'm tired of this sick cycle carousel. i need a breather.

yesterday i was so pissed off at hubby for destroying our plans for the night. sometimes i wish it was a simple as shaking him to wake him up from his drunkeness. drats!

but then again i got home and saw him asleep. it was a relief coz it means i am free from his nagging that night. and then in the wee hours of the morning. he woke me up and whispered "sorry". i faced him and told him "wag naman ganon" one minute he was bashing me with all the foul words and evil thoughts he could think of and the next he is hugging me and apologizing for his stupidity.

god im not a kid anymore. hindi ako bata na pag binigyan mo ng candy okey na ako. mabuti na lang paalis na sya. konting tyaga na lang. konting konti na lang....sighhh

right now my hearts deepest desire is to go somewhere nice and get myself pampered. a body spa would be great of course matched with a very peaceful vacation place and a good book. yes i'd really like that for my birthday. but its such a long shot for something like that to happen. #1 im freaking sick since sunday it held me up from my gym sched and even from work #2 work is driving me crazy sigh

i have so much to say related to the title. but i ended up deleting most of it. i guess i'm not ready to share abt that part of my life just yet. baka mausog. heheheh all i can say abt it right now is that its making my heart smile. let's see where this will get me. i hope its something better.