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Sabi sa Kdrama na napanood ko, "it's expected for the limbs to malfunction when the head is rotten."

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Unbusy day at work. Wala pang 30 minutes since my shift started, natapos ko na yung 4 pirasong backlogs ko. I'm just watching out for incoming chats now. There's none yet. Absolutely not complaining.

Will need to file a few days leave soon. Once the workers finished our kitchen, Mom plans to have my room fixed next. Tiles installation lang. Might take a few days. There's no way to work in the next rooms dahil, (1) maingay yung machine na pang cut ng tiles, (2) di abot yung LAN cable ng router.

The workers couldn't give the exact time when they can start with my room. I don't know how will I be able to file a leave with this.

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Been looking at old pictures. Masaya naman yung memories, hindi ko alam kung bakit nakakalungkot. Iniisip ko kung dahil ba sa katatapos ko lang ng kdrama na nagustuhan ko.

The past two days, I just spent watching kdrama. I did leave home to buy groceries, with only 50 pesos in my wallet. Lol.

Sabi sa nabasa kong meme, these days daw, keeping yourself alive, is a big achievement na.

Iniisip ko kung may pagsisisihan ba ko balang araw dahil sa mga oras na sinasayang ko today.

I used to complain about not having time, sometimes, about not having money. I have both of these now, pero ano ba tong ginagawa ko sa buhay ko...

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I stopped studying Japanese since I left company#1 in 2013. That's 7 years ago.

I tried watching a Japanese series in Netfix, hindi ko maintidihan kung bakit parang nas gets ko pa yung Korean. Sabi ng Korean speaker na kakilala ko, mas mahirap daw talaga ang Japanese kesa sa Korean. 

Iniisip ko kung nag improve man lang ba ko. Siguro kahit naman paano, oo.

Nung bata pa ko, pangarap kong matuto ng foreign language. Parang ang astig kasi nung nagsasalita ka tas walang nakakaintindi sayo. Parang ang cool lang. 

I still think the same now. Well, except when I'm attending to a Japanese user tas hindi kami magkaintindihan. Alam ko, dapat nag aaral ako para maging better sa language na to lalo na at I need this skill para sa trabaho.

Pero, gusto ko ba talaga to?

When people ask me how to write a speech, I always tell them to begin at the ending. Because thats the only way for you to know how you'll work your way into getting there. Sa ending.

Sa tingin ko, it should be the same in everything else in life. Before starting anything, you need to know first kung ano ba yung end result na gusto mo.

Ano ba yung end result na gusto ko? Kailangan ko ba talagang maging better in Japanese to achieve that end result? Or sasayangin ko lang ba yung oras ko spending time on something I wouldn't need in the future?

Tingin ko, hangga't hindi ko alam ang sagot sa unang tanong, hindi ko rin masasagot yung mga kasunod. Tapos patuloy kong uubusin ang oras sa sa kapapanood ng koreanovela in the hope na maybe, I'll just wake up one day having all the answers.

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Wednesday and I'm free again.

I remember reading somewhere that we should love in such a way that the person we love feels free.

There're just so many things running in my head now.

This week, I realized na marami pang lalaking good catch na single pa rin at hindi bading. 

Tinatamad lang naman talaga akong mag reply. Minsan kasi mas gusto ko nalang manood ng koreanovela.

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Just got a message for an officemate that another one from JP team has resigned. Hindi nya rin alam kung bakit.

Morning shift had been so hayahay lately. 2-3 calls, max na yung 7. Tas mga backlogs, minsan wala pang 10. Hindi ko maintindihan bakit hindi na kami binibigyan ng backlogs ni Divya.

I am in no way missing the times when I'm working on over 40 tickets per day. Nakakapraning lang kasi pag biglang ganito. Tas malalaman ko nalang na biglang nag resign si Kenta? Tokwa, bakit? 

Sighs.

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I don't know what's with this feeling. Yung... ano ba tawag dito? Yung feeling na parang walang saysay lahat,  ganun? Ewan ko. Kung tutuusin, ok naman ang lahat. My family is happy and complete. We sleep in warm bed. We have lovely dogs and a cat. And I have a job that pays me well...

Tapos?

Hindi ko masasabing love life ang kulang. Not at this time. I feel like it's all within my grasps, as if offering a hand for a handshake and I'm just standing there staring.

Ano ba tong hallow part na hindi kayang punan kahit ng love life? 

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When I signed in for work this morning, a call immediately came. When the man on the other line spoke, I understood the language but somehow got lost on how to respond. I fumbled for the Japanese words to use, yet nothing felt applicable until I realized, "takte, Korean."

Been watching a lot of kdrama. I never really stopped since we subscribed in Netflix. I'm seriously thinking of studying korean. Someone from the Korean team at work gave me a link where he self-studied Korean Language. Took him 1 year lang daw, and now nag ko Korean support na sya. Gusto ko rin matutong mag Korean.

Minsan feeling ko kaya I lack interest in meeting real-life decent men e dahil di sila katulad ng mga bida sa Kdrama. Bad trep. 

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May friend, LA, is crushing on this Japanese dude she met on an online TM meeting for a TM club in Japan. Infey, gwapo yung dude. There'll be having a meeting again this week, pero Saturday kasi at tatapat sa shift ko. I'd really want to join. Nakakatuwa kasi yung guy. I've checked his profile tas based on his picture e parang yung mga trip nya sa buhay e same ng mga trip ko sa buhay. Laman din kasi sya ng learning events. Tas Japanese pa sya. Wala lang. Interesting lang.

Yung crush ko sa TM from another club, ok rin naman e. Single din yun. And he's Chinese. Parehas din kami ng mga trip sa buhay. Alam mo, ang dami pa talagang ok na lalaki na single e...

Oh e tapos?

Sighs. Manonood nalang siguro ako ng Koreanovela.

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Tita P died this morning.

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Episode 7.

Shet, ang intense. Di ko kayang panoorin. Saan ba merong transcribed version? I need to make sure 1st that the male lead will be safe in the end. Juice colored. Nakakakaba. Putek.

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Work has started at 10 and my pc is still updating. T_T

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Wahh!!!! Jisoo! Wahh!!!!

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Dad promised to pay, so to Netflix it is!

Sa dami ng choices, umikli lalo ang maikli kong pasensya at attention span. Puro umpisa lang napapanood ko at wala akong natapos.

But today, I finished Healer.

Nakakainis yung ganitong feeling. Parang napamahal ka na sa mga characters, tas ngayong natapos mo na, you feel lost and nowhere to go. Takte, ganito rin pakiramdam ko dati everytime na natatapos ko kada book ng Harry Potter. Same with my other favorite series.

Tokwa, nakakalungkot.

About a week back, brother was raving about this movie he watched. The title's Fabricated City. Watched it kahit talagalized at low quality. My brother rarely rave about movies kaya nacurios din ako. Infey, maganda.

That's why I landed sa Healer. Naghanap kasi ako ng kdrama na nadun yung bidang guy. Ji Chang Wook. I love the charater, but the actor himself, kamukha ni Y. Pati mannerisms maraming common. That part, I don't like. Haha.

Thinking of watching another drama from this dude. Sobrang pogi and perfect ng mga bida ng kdrama, nakaka frustrate. I remember Y was like that when we first met. Until I get to know him better. Lol.

Hayst. Can't shake this sad sad feeling. Maybe I should just watch another series.

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Trabaho, tv, kain, tulog, crochet, repeat. It's not really bad, pero minsan mapapaisip ka talaga na, ganito nalang ba?

Don't get me wrong, I love staying home... iniisip ko lang kung healthy ba para sa tao yung too much comfort. I feel like I should be using this time to find a way to get myself off the cage of employment and be free. Own my time. Pero alam mo, this cage is one of my biggest blessings. 

See, right now, the cage means, protection. And provision. That's why I'm really really thankful for this cage.

But I can't stay here. I would like to believe that I'm not meant to be caged. Pero, ano bang dapat kong gawin?

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Episode 13.

Huminto na ko ng panonood a little past 12 pero di ako makatulog. Takte yung cliffhanger na ending. At yung east or west part, putek, nakakakilig. Mahal ko na yata si Healer.

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4 more hours at work. Hilong hilo talaga ko sa antok today. Babawi nalang ako after ng day off ko.

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When I was younger, I used to wear my busyness like a badge of honor. I still do sometimes. Pero minsan, parang masaya rin yung may time ka na tumahimik sa isang sulok para mag munimuni.

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Salmon belly ang ulam namin kanina. Masarap naman. Hindi ko lang maintindihan kung bakit laging belly at wala manlang laman. One time, Dad mixed salmon with bangus, akala nya we wouldn't notice. 

I started eating fish about a month or so ago. Naisip ko kasi yung mercury poisoning sa hipon. When I watched a vid on fb where a fishing hook got stucked in a shark's mouth, I felt sorry. Then there's that feeling again na parang wala akong karapatan to feel sorry because I eat their kind. Siguro kaya ko naman maging complete vegetarian. Or maybe I just need to stop watching animal videos.

Alam mo bang ang sarap pala ng barrio fiesta bagoong? Sobra, best bagoong ever.

Takte, ano ba to. Puro food ang naiisip ko. Kakakain ko lang.

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Been watching the kdrama, Healer, kaya lagi akong puyat. Having watched a lot of kdramas, I know they all follow the same formula. Pero kahit ganon, nakakahook parin. My top 3 faves remain to be:

1. It's okay, that's love

2. Pinocchio 

3. I am not a robot

Any kdrama and movie recommendations?

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1 day nalang, off ko na. Yehey.

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I was expecting 3 users. Nagulat ako nung over 20 na yung nag join sa webex meeting na nisetup ko. Panel kung panel. Tokwa. Pinagpawisan ako ng very slight nung hindi kumagat yung password synch. Buti nagawan ng paraan. 

He sounded like a true legit Japanese. Pero nung nag English sya, Pinoy accent. Tapos pangalan nya, tunog Indian. Tried to search his name sa fb, takte, andaming may parehas na pangalan.

Natuwa lang ako on how he helped me explain things dun sa mga kasama namin sa webex meeting. Bait kausap e. 

I have no idea how he looks like, pero cras ko to.

Sa dami ng users from different countries na sinusupport ko araw araw, sana may mabingwit naman ako kahit isa. Yung pogi, mabait, matalino at maraming pera.