lilliputs is how my mom used to call my high school friends. as the word connotes most of them can be mistaken for my kids in terms of height. they are cute, adorable and small but terrible. a group of strong-willed women who are making raves in their own careers.

the other day carol called me up and was setting up a bonding session as she said she needed advise on some office issues. we usually gather especially when someone is in need to de-stress. most times we throw in our points of view on whatever issue is at hand. bahala na yung may problema to sort things out. we share books we have read or drink a bottle or two of beer when in the mood.

anyway, things were scheduled last night and we were mtg at cafe juanita once we got there surprise of all suprises it was an advanced bday dinner for me. my hubby and kids were there. nakakatouch talaga. aside from the dinner they gave me a book - the kite runner. the best book they have read so far.


i am truly blessed to have such friends. God has His way of making up for the worse parts of my life. i am just happy to have them around. yesterday, i received one of the best gifts i have ever got in my life. - the gift of long lasting friendship.

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"We all lose friends.. we lose them in death, to distance and over time. But even though they may be lost, hope is not. The key is to keep them in your heart, and when the time is right, you can pick up the friendship right where you left off. Even the lost find their way home when you leave the light on." ~ Amy Marie Walz

i really appreciate friends who remember me on my natal day. i dunno but somehow knowing your friends try to keep in touch with you whatever way they can makes me feel a bit special. its a special time to renew ties and keep the friendship bond alive.

now for those who tend to forget, there's still next year anyway. that is if i'm still alive by then. hmppttt morbid thoughts. somehow people will only get to appreciate someone when they are gone. only when everything is too late. (tampo mode)

sigh....the simple things matters. i don't care abt the material stuff... its the thought that really counts.

i remember when my dad was alive. he was poor at remembering dates. he kept a diary of birthdays of his parents and siblings (12 of them) and of his kids (4+1) still, he forgets. i have to call him up and remind him to greet me. i miss that. i miss my dad. i don't mind reminding him every year to greet me.

but now i guess i have to whisper in the wind....dad another year has passed...its my second birthday without you....wherever you are i hope you are happy. i will see you soon. i love you.

i've been getting lots of great blessings starting this month. compared to last yr, this year is full of answered prayers. first, hubby got his working visa for Qatar and will be leaving tentative sched on the 19th. after 6 mos of waiting for the Dubai visa and finally changing agencies and getting the visa in two weeks time.

second, i have just been formally accepted in nokia-siemens network that holds office in philam tower makati. i am officially starting on the 2nd week of July. filed my resignation letter today. my boss gave a heart-rending speech but i guess she knows that the opportunity in a multinational is totally far out from what i'm getting right now.

i'm in cloud 9. although i will be missing some good friends, my crush, my staff and most of all the mall. hahahaha

2007 is becoming a good year for me and my family. hope this goes on till the end of the year. everything in God's time and divine purpose.

i just sent hubby to the airport today. i am proud of myself that i was able to hold up my tears. i didn't want to make it more hard for him to say our goodbyes. its going to be different without him around.

our life as a couple wasn't a bed of roses. but we were able to pull it thru. there were times that we both wanted to give up. (i think for awhile we had) but i guess after all that we both have gone thru its not that easy to let go of the good things we both had together.

now after the feeling of him gone has sunk in, i decided to let go of the tears. i tried to sleep the day through. to somehow forget abt the sense of longingness. but i guess i can never escape the reality of him being away.

in a few weeks time i am going to say goodbye to long time friends that i have established while working for suncellular in four yrs. its going to be sad as well. but i guess for every goodbye there is always a new beginning to look forward to.

i am taking a new path. its not going to be easy....but i know that i have Him to look after me. He was the only One constant in my life. and i believe that everything was His doing. i was never that religious but i have faith in Him and i believe that miracles do happen...even to sinners like me.

maybe i took him for granted because i was complacent he was always around. because after he left i feel like i'm falling into this bottomless black pit. i don't have the energy to do anything anymore. i lost appetite in almost everything i do. gym, work, even waking up in the morning is such an effort for me.

unconsciously, i became dependent on him. we practically changed roles in our family. i used to be the breadwinner and he was the one who took care of the kids and managed the household. deep inside i must have resented the changing of roles. and i took his role for granted just because of this.

only to realize how important his part was to the family....to me. 13 yrs of married life + 6 yrs of bf-gf relationship. we've gone through a roller coaster ride in our relationship. kept each other at arms-length for a time. got separated for awhile when he was assigned in cebu. it really wasn't heaven at all.

and now this....i have so much to be thankful for having him around. i didn't realize how much i still love him. when you are married this long you sometimes take these things for granted. especially if you have emotional baggages you tend to give importance to.

i know i should be happy and thankful for the blessings that are rushing through. most of all i know i should be thankful for having you as my husband. in sickness and in health, in wealth and in poverty....i will be true to my promise...i will stick with you till the end. i love you bebeng!

now God help me get thru this pls.

deelicious tagged me.

First, the rules:

Each player of this game starts with the 6 weird things about you. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

this should be fun....

1) i don't have any sense of direction. i can only be familiar with a place if i go there regularly.

2) i can brush my teeth while walking around the house (my hubby is amazed at how i can do this...coz he can't...hehehe)

3) i am bad at remembering birthdays (memory gap)

4) i am OC abt having my bedsheets in order always

5) i love sleeping. i can sleep continuously for 24 hours.

6) i have a dark side not even my closest friends know abt. (evil smile)

i'm tagging you:

cruboy
literati
ynnah
annestephie
marshee
magical