i was walking along valero going to h.v. dela costa for a mtg. suddenly heard this very loud eardrum breaking sound. as i looked back pieces of glass are scattered just along the pavement i passed by a few seconds ago. there's this manong who said "miss muntik ka na dun ah" i shrugged my shoulders and said "oo nga manong eh" and ran along as if nothing happened.

and then it got me thinking, should it be a sign abt something. i am not really good at these things. i hardly believe in them anyway. but there were a lot of times when i didn't listen to my instincts. and i knew something bad was gonna happen and yet i didn't think abt it that much until something really does.

been not in speaking terms with hubby. had a sort of misunderstanding last weekend over a ym message. and he just cut the communication like it was such a major thing. i got worried sick thinking that something might be wrong. so set my pride aside and asked how he was doing. he said he was okey only busy with the construction that he was looking after.

as soon as i learned he was fine, i cried. i don't know why. out of frustration maybe. coz i'm really helpless being so far from him. what if something happens. (knock on wood) shoot i maybe making a mountain out of a molehill here....i guess i just miss him really bad. sigh

you'd think that after 13 yrs of marriage somehow you'd be beyond this stage when you'd dedicate songs to each other...or talk abt sweet nothings...well, i guess after being away from each other you'd both realize the importance of being together. distance does make the heart grow fonder.

after a long while, my husband dedicated a song for me. its an old song but the meaning goes beyond words. it just meant so much to both of us. it was like the song was really made for us. cried when i read the lyrics.

i'm such a sucker for romance.

How I Love You
by Engelbert Humperdinck

You hold me in your eyes
In your own special way
I wonder how you know
The things I never say

I can't imagine life
Without you by my side
The power of your love
Is all I need tonight

I know there have been times
That I have caused you pain
I'd turn them all around
If I could start again

There's something I must say
I know it's overdue
The sweetest thing I've known
Forever called my own
Begins and ends with you

How I love you
How I love you

The softness of your lips
The colour of your hair
The memory of your touch
Remains when you're not there

The echoes of your laughter
When I'm feeling blue
The meaning of my life
It all begins with you

So come into my arms
Lay down by my side
The moon is always there
To keep our love alight

I've reached so very high
For everything that's mine
And at the top is you
I want you for all time
A dream forever new

How I love you
How I love you

The softness of your lips
The colour of your hair
The memory of your touch
Remains when you're not there

The echoes of your laughter
When I'm feeling blue
The meaning of my life
It all begins with you

So come into my arms
Lay down by my side
The moon is always there
To keep our love alight

You know me like a book
You've read a thousand times
We know each other's hearts
We read each other's mind
This feeling's always new

How I love you
How I love you

The softness of your lips
The colour of your hair
The memory of your touch
Remains when you're not there

The echoes of your laughter
When I'm feeling blue
The meaning of my life
It all begins with you

...give equal appreciation to the process and not just the goal. If you only focus on the goal tapos you missed then you've gained nothing (loser!!!) but if you made sure you learned as much as you can in the process then you'll always win

Anyways read at your leisure... enjoy the journey... learn from the bumps... focus on what is important... have a happy weekend.

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This was a speech made by Pulitzer Prize-winning author, Anna Quindlen at the graduation ceremony of an American university where she was awarded an Honorary PhD.

"I'm a novelist. My work is human nature. Real life is all I know. Don't ever confuse the two, your life and your work. You will walk out of here this afternoon with only one thing that no one else has. There will be hundreds of people out there with your same degree: there will be thousands of people doing what you want to do for a living. But you will be the only person alive who has sole custody of your life. Your particular life. Your entire life. Not just your life at a desk, or your life on a bus, or in a car, or at the computer. Not just the life of your mind, but the life of your heart. Not just your bank accounts but also your soul.

People don't talk about the soul very much anymore. It's so much easier to write a resume than to craft a spirit. But a resume is cold comfort on a winter's night, or when you're sad, or broke, or lonely, or when you've received your test results and they're not so good.

Here is my resume: I am a good mother to three children. I have tried never to let my work stand in the way of being a good parent. I no longer consider myself the centre of the universe. I show up. I listen.

I try to laugh. I am a good friend to my husband. I have tried to make marriage vows mean what they say. I am a good friend to my friends and they to me. Without them, there would be nothing to say to you today, because I would be a cardboard cut out. But I call them on the phone, and I meet them for lunch. I would be rotten, at best mediocre at my job if those other things were not true.

You cannot be really first rate at your work if your work is all you are. So here's what I wanted to tell you today: Get a life. A real life, not a manic pursuit of the next promotion, the bigger pay cheque, the larger house. Do you think you'd care so very much about those things if you blew an aneurysm one afternoon, or found a lump in your breast?

Get a life in which you notice the smell of salt water pushing itself on a breeze at the seaside, a life in which you stop and watch how a red-tailed hawk circles over the water, or the way a baby scowls with concentration when she tries to pick up a sweet with her thumb and first finger.

Get a life in which you are not alone. Find people you love, and who love you. And remember that love is not leisure, it is work. Pick up the phone. Send an email. Write a letter. Get a life in which you are generous. And realize that life is the best thing ever, and that you have no business taking it for granted. Care so deeply about its goodness that you want to spread it around. Take money you would have spent on beer and give it to charity. Work in a soup kitchen. Be a big brother or sister. All of you want to do well. But if you do not do good too, then doing well will never be enough.

It is so easy to waste our lives, our days, our hours, and our minutes.

It is so easy to take for granted the color of our kids' eyes, the way the melody in a symphony rises and falls and disappears and rises again.

It is so easy to exist instead of to live.

I learned to live many years ago. I learned to love the journey, not the destination. I learned that it is not a dress rehearsal, and that today is the only guarantee you get. I learned to look at all the good in the world and try to give some of it back because I believed in it, completely and utterly. And I tried to do that, in part, by telling others what I had learned. By telling them this: Consider the lilies of the field. Look at the fuzz on a baby's ear. Read in the back yard with the sun on your face. Learn to be happy. And think of life as a terminal illness, because if you do, you will live it with joy and passion as it ought to be lived".

yup, i am actually immersed at my new work now. things are still topsy turvy. get dizzy working with two laptops and SAP systems. going crazy trying to find out which unit should do stuff. learning lots of tools to help me around with my reports. attending conference calls with various foreign counterparts. etc. etc. etc

being with this company for almost three months somehow made me validate on my good impressions. of course, there are always trade-offs....but these are things that i can handle. i am quite satisfied, and i'm happy with the daily challenges that i encounter. i have a cool boss and nice officemates.

quarter-ending so the serious side of work is really creeping up fast starting this week till the next. monday, the first of october is hell day. need to finish up two reports which should be submitted the same day. dependency is on our global shared services that they finish up their closing activities fast. sigh...

sooo.....okeyyyy......good luck to me.....