Entries for August, 2015

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
~ Robert Frost
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This is one of my favorite poems. I could relate it to a lot of times I made certain decisions in my life. There are 
times that I regret the road I have chosen. But later on would find out that it was the best option at that time because
it came out with the more advantageous results.
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by princess_bride on August 3, 2015 at 10:14 AM | dance with me
Because the reason I live is you,
With my heart, I hope the remaining,
flickering memories will be sent to you
At the end of this road I walk on,
At this road that was allowed to me,
I, who used to love and love you more,
Remain here alone

My love has all burned up and
the only thing remaining
Are the exhausted scars from waiting
I cannot forget a person like you
Only tears fall

When my love has all washed away
Only the longing scars remain
Only the words, “good bye” remain
So I cannot forget you

Following the flower petals
that yield to the sky
When I meet you,
I can tell you now that I longed for you
I long for you so I couldn’t forget you

My love has all burned up and
the only thing remaining
Are the exhausted scars from waiting
I cannot forget a person like you
Only tears fall

When my love has all washed away
Only the longing scars remain
Only the words, “good bye” remain
So I cannot forget you

- Ali (Rooftop Prince OST)

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I wonder....do you still remember? Do you think about me? What was I to you? At this point does any of these questions matter? I guess not. But thanks for the wonderful memories. I have said many goodbyes to you. And though we are still in touch somehow, I know it will never be the same again. It has been years, and I know you deserve what you have now. Something I can never give you.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being inappropriate. I'm sorry for having no shame, no honor. But it is beyond me, how strong I felt for you. It was something that up to now I couldn't explain. It was just there. And it was something that i felt should be expressed no matter what the lsituation was. I was wrong....love wasn't enough and towards the end I knew that I had to stop. I had to let you go. 

My heart still aches until now. I know I said I have moved on. I did. There are just moments like this when the memories linger and I can feel the pain all over again. Times when I remember your boyish smile, the warm moments, and the hot ones too. Times when I still ask myself if what I did then was the right thing to do. Now, there is no turning back. All I can do is wish you well. Though we have fallen apart, cliche as it may sound, you will always have that special spot in my heart Mr. Icy. That exhausted scar shall serve as a reminder of the good, the bad and everything in between. 
Currently feeling: nostalgic
Posted by princess_bride on August 15, 2015 at 09:53 PM | dance with me

so i just got my regularization appointment paper today. it should be a happy moment, but i'm torn. compared to my prev employer i am better compensated here. but i feel like i am being under utilized. i want more challenge. i guess i was just used to how busy i was previously.

so i've been using the extra time to take care of my health. been feeling rotten for the past weeks. moving like a 90 yr old woman even. was in and out of the hospital seeing doctors, going through lab tests, etc. now i have a bunch of medicines that looks like jelly bean candies that i take daily. so far i am feeling better now. just need to pinpoint what exactly is the problem. too many health issues to mention. sigh.

so back to my problem here at work...pondering on - should i move out or not? i am just too lazy to go through the application process again. it's better when you get pirated, you don't go through that much. so what's next? bahala na si batman!

Currently listening to: like i'm gonna lose you - meghan trainor
Currently reading: eleanor & parks - rainbow rowell
Currently watching: discovery romance (korean)
Currently feeling: confused
Posted by princess_bride on August 25, 2015 at 02:10 PM | dance with me
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