And I could list a million things
I love to like about you
But they could all come down to one reason
I could never live without you..

as i was chatting with a friend and reminiscing abt the past i was thrown a question abt things me and my hubby discuss abt aside from family matters. it just got me thinking. we discuss abt a million and one things. some interesting, some intriguing, some are debatable, some funny. but i can never see myself doing it with another person.

we keep our life interesting. we don't have much but we survive the hardest times. but no matter how imperfect our life maybe, i do not regret having him for my lifetime partner. we are a perfect match. well nothing really is perfect, but we try to compensate each others weaknesses and strengths. and the best thing is we managed to keep the "spark" alive.

in our current generation, keeping a relationship is so hard to do. ang daming temptations, ang daming diversions its so difficult to focus and nurture what you have. its so easy to say sorry or i love you...but the question is, do you really mean it?

just last night hubby and i had a petty argument. its painful because you only get to chat freely during his day offs which is once a week. and we didn't have that liberty last night. still, at the end of the day, we try to learn from these small things. it may hurt a lot, and it could make you cry....as long as someone owns his/ her mistake its just another wound that would heal in time.

yes, i am weary and stressed and confused and pissed off and having different emotions all at the same time. no, this time its not abt work. i guess its more abt mommy stuff. teenagers can be a pain in the butt. sighhhh

and to add insult to injury, my hubby's having these weird moodswings. nakakainis! sometimes i just feel so alone. grrrr...there are moments talaga na ganito. tipong gusto mo na ibalik sa nanay nya. kaso no turning back na diba? so unfortunately, i have to deal. may period siguro sya....hehehe

i just don't get it. we are talking abt petty things here. like a grounded headset and i get to be shouted for something that i don't have any control over. these are the things i put up with him. sometimes may time na parang nagiimprove....pero more often than not, magugulat ka na lang kse nagagalit na sya.

so okey, in times like this i usually think abt happy thoughts. and the things we went through together...para di ko na sya ibalik sa nanay nya....heheheh

ganito talaga...part of growing up together...part of the marriage...the good side and the bad side...one cannot exist without the other....otherwise walang comparison. walang lambingan pagkatapos. ang dapat abangan dito kung pano maaayos. sino ang unang magsosorry...sinong unang di makakatiis....minsan sya minsan ako...give and take. walang bilangan...walang sumbatan.

di tuloy ako makatulog. sighhhhhhhh

i think i'm doing things all wrong when it comes to raising my teenage daughter. nothing seems to work. i grounded her and confiscated her celfon. i let her use my laptop to make her project and she's at it again. sheesh...i swear if this doesn't stop soon i'm gonna die of heart attack. - helpless mom

i've told him his moodswings aren't helping our situation at all. i had to tell him. and he just told me to shut up and we went on talking like nothing happened. he isn't making sense. i need him to be reasonable coz i need to sort things out with him. yaddah yaddah...i could talk all day and it wouldn't get into his thick head. shit! - tired wife

so many projects coming in parallel with each other. excited on my upcoming trip to singapore first week of december. this is going to be my first time to go out of the country. unlike my siblings who have been to australia and the U.S. i guess its my time to shine now. at least there's something left for me to look forward to. - pleased employee

close friends are leaving one after the other. trying to look for opportunities abroad. couldn't blame them. i miss them though. somehow it makes me feel sad each day. i feel so alone. sigh... - supportive friend

simply stated, i feel like i'm a mess. still that girl trying to find her sense of purpose...or is it waiting for someone who would acknowledge me? i don't know. at my age, i should have found whatever that is. - frustrated me