"Smile like you've never cried, Fight like you never lost, Love like you've never been hurt, And live like you'll die tomorrow."
day by day i realize
everything i miss about you
was never there in the first place
~ the person i fell in love with was a mirage
The Sun and Her Flowers by Rupi Kaur
i came upon a fork in the road
and chose the one that isolated myself from you
it took a while to get to that point
where there was no turning back
it was years when my heart kept giving
until there was no more left to give
ultimately felt i couldn't give enough
inspite of all the love and giving
ultimately felt i needed to give that space
for you to grow and meet someone
who has more than enough to give.
~ GP
i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. i just want to pull my hair out. or worse, do something really drastic just to escape from this predicament. and whatever rant i make, i still just feel so alone and hopeless. i kept praying for a miracle but it is like it's falling on deaf ears. i am desperate and in a desolate place. what to do? where to go?
i need an escape route. i want out. =(