what's left of yesterday
“Maybe the truth is there's a little bit of loser in all of us you know, being happy isn't having everything in your life being perfect. Maybe it's about stringing together all the little things. Making those count more then the bad stuff. Maybe we just get through it and that's all we can ask for.”
― Ann Brashares, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants
Over the weekend, I have been binge watching on old movies I haven't watched before. Found myself crying, laughing, sympathizing, singing....a roller coaster of emotions to be exact. Most parts I was crying, I miss my Mom. 
I miss my Dad too. I miss you. After all these years, I still find myself thinking about you. Thinking about what is left of yesterday. Nothing I guess. Except for the special moments and memories. So I'll string that together and make it count. Even if this so-called friendship is close to none.
I think I'm fine knowing that you're happy and healthy. I would've wanted more, I mean not like before. Maybe just a chance to say hi or hello, sharing music and talk about what's going on with our lives. But I guess that's asking too much. So all I can do is pray for a blessed life for you and reminisce on happy moments on my own. I think that counts....the memories. It is more than I could bargain for. And at this point, that's enough.
“Maybe there is more truth in how you feel than in what actually happens.”
― Ann Brashares, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants