better in time
everything gets better in time. case in point, it took a few months for me to adjust to my new employer and new job. i guess one of the factors was i stayed for almost 8 yrs with my previous employer. they were essentially my second family. i called my boss "mother". it was a happy environment until the last months when not all good things last and i decided to move.
no matter how bad it seem when i was starting, i got two recognitions in 9 mos time. not bad. =) but i shouldn't rest on my laurels. it's a sign for me to push myself some more. to maximize my potential and be able to contribute more to the organization. i know deep inside that i can do much better. i can give some more.
on matters of the heart, i gotta admit i get lonely sometimes...well, actually, i get lonely a lot. it's like i'm missing something. like there's a blank space that needs to be filled. i know i shouldn't entertain such thoughts anymore. but i guess that's part of being human...not being perfect....wanting more for myself. wanting to be taken cared of. missing the warmth and intimacy. LDR is just so difficult. so i keep myself busy. i read books, watch a lot of tv series, bond with family and friends. but sometimes it's just not enough. sigh...
i just have to keep on believing that things do get better in time.