princess_bride

and the journey goes on...

it has been awhile since i did a lot of things that i used to do. one of them is posting here. it's like my life was at a standstill. for whatever reason, i don't really know. i just know its not something i shouldn't waste time on. i should just walk...forward that is. 

in retrospect, my last post was about my dreams. i still have those dreams and get to reminisce the good times. but i know now that it's not for me to act on it. i mean yes there were wondeful memories, and i'm sure the tenderness will always be there. but that's that. i should wait for my subconscious to finally quit on it. and i'm confident that it will, eventually.

i worked hard for what i have now. it's not perfect but i'm hopeful that things are going to be alright. forgetting past hurts can take time but i believe that when both sides are willing to work on it, then its going to be great. i know i keep telling myself this. i'm not sure why i gave it another try...maybe its because of love, or maybe because i'm too afraid to be alone.

everything is still a work in progress. i must admit there were times that i just want out. but a part of me hangs on to the good times. it can't be that bad. well, it can but if things have changed then maybe not. 

so yes, my journey still goes on....