princess_bride

When words run dry

He does not try

nor do I

We are on par.

He just is,

I just am

and we just are.

~ Lang Leav

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moi, je ne regrette rien

princess_bride

heard this old song on accuradio today. been feeling down again lately. i've been thinking, how sad it is to restrain yourself from being the first to communicate for fear of getting in the way of their happiness. sad because what you had was special and you can't do anything abt it. don't get me wrong, i'm happy, he is happy. but i'm sad because of all these feelings that i cannot express. i miss him.    sigh....

NOW & FOREVER (Carole King)

Now and forever, you are a part of me
And the memory cuts like a knife
Didn't we find the ecstasy, didn't we share the daylight
When you walked into my life

Now and forever, I'll remember
All the promises still unbroken
And think about all the words between us
That never needed to be spoken

We had a moment, just one moment
That will last beyond a dream, beyond a lifetime 
We are the lucky ones
Some people never get to do all we got to do
Now and forever, I will always think of you

Didn't we come together, didn't we live together
Didn't we cry together
Didn't we play together, didn't we love together
And together we lit up the world

I miss the tears, I miss the laughter
I miss the day we met and all that followed after
Sometimes I wish I could always be with you
The way we used to do 
Now and forever, I will always think of you
Now and forever, I will always be with you

princess_bride

Our most natural state is joy. It is the foundation for love, compassion, healing, and the desire to alleviate suffering. ~ Deepak Chopra

I have this frantic desire to alleviate my suffering. I am exerting so much effort in keeping my mindset intact. I must not waver. 

Its just so difficult to set aside so many memories. I am craving for you. I crave for everything that we used to have. But I always have to stop at these thoughts. I have to let you be happy. This is your moment. I cannot get in the way. 

I wish I can just tell you - "Lets be stupid" and throw all my hesitations in the wind. But I can't. I have to let you be happy. I wish I could offer you that. I wish things were different. 

A million times or more I thought about you
The years, the tears, the laughter, things we used to do
Are memories that warm me like a sunny day
You touched my life in such a special way

.....................i'm going to be joyful!!!

princess_bride

dumilim na...wala pa din ang kape. at wala din nagsabi na wag ka na maghintay. howell.

princess_bride

everything around me is broken

                 electric fan, AC, washing machine...

                 friendships, relationships...

                 and ME....

it's indeed a sad ang gloomy day...i need my happy pill.  

princess_bride

thank you for putting a smile on my face again. 

thank you for making me feel good abt myself.

thank you for making me realize my worth. 

thank you for just being there and trying to cheer me up when the odds were against me. 

thank you for accepting me for who i am. 

thank you for seeing the good in me.

and you just don't know it, but i am willing to take this leap of faith for an unsure future with you.

so thank you. i just couldn't say it enough. 

princess_bride

I just love this song by Thriving Ivory. 

So don't tell me if I'm dying 
'Cause I don't want to know
If I can't see the sun 
Maybe I should go
Don't wake me 'cause I'm dreaming 
Of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know
Never leaves too soon