Our most natural state is joy. It is the foundation for love, compassion, healing, and the desire to alleviate suffering. ~ Deepak Chopra

I have this frantic desire to alleviate my suffering. I am exerting so much effort in keeping my mindset intact. I must not waver. 

Its just so difficult to set aside so many memories. I am craving for you. I crave for everything that we used to have. But I always have to stop at these thoughts. I have to let you be happy. This is your moment. I cannot get in the way. 

I wish I can just tell you - "Lets be stupid" and throw all my hesitations in the wind. But I can't. I have to let you be happy. I wish I could offer you that. I wish things were different. 

A million times or more I thought about you
The years, the tears, the laughter, things we used to do
Are memories that warm me like a sunny day
You touched my life in such a special way

 

.....................i'm going to be joyful!!!

Currently listening to: old friend - phyllis hyman
Currently reading: the girl you left behind - jojo moyes
Currently feeling: determined
Posted by princess_bride on November 6, 2012 at 09:32 AM | 4 danced with me
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Comment posted on November 11th, 2012 at 05:26 PM
stay strong and find your own path to happiness. Happiness may be illusive, but dig deep and look hard, and you'll find it.
Comment posted on November 11th, 2012 at 05:41 PM
Agree! Thanks for dropping by. :-)
Comment posted on November 6th, 2012 at 11:34 AM
I think we are on a same situation. Hugs. :)
Comment posted on November 6th, 2012 at 12:23 PM
awwww hugssss!!!