princess_bride

as much as i would want to be cynical abt this overrated event i still believe that love should be celebrated everyday. vday or not. that is if you got someone to celebrate it with. well, celebrating it with friends is not a bad idea at all. 

anyway, been supressing feelings the past weeks. at times, i feel like im gonna burst. its just sad how such a beautiful feeling cannot be expressed because of things beyond one's control. i really wish things have been different. i just wonder why we always get into this situation. i guess i never learn. i was always wishing for those times when we were just beginning. that was round abt seven yrs ago. i can never get it back.

all i wanted was for you to hold my hand.  a firm grasp to let me know that i meant something to you. i would never have asked for anything more than what you can give. a kind gesture of holding my hand would have meant the world to me. a simple gesture that was so hard for you to give. a rejection that is painful enough to go through.

now i firmly resolve, that no matter how painful and difficult this is for me, holding back whatever this is that i would rather not define, i will and i must weather this storm alone. i have been strong enough to go through a lot of storms in my life. this would not be any different. well, this is the story of my life.

....if only i could hold your hand and feel you again. i would've gone through whatever pain it would entail than feeling empty like this.