i am in that weird moment

....when you want to just blurt it out but have to hold it back because there are just things better left unsaid. 

....when you miss him so bad but you would hate to show it for fear of being rejected as always

....when you want to give a call or send a text message but would rather not because of again fear of getting dissed

but you are right, there are much better things out there to ponder on. i should be ok soon.  

....i just miss you so bad.