its just another day. i had to think of a million and one ways to divert my mind from thinking so much of you not being here again. our tv series dvd stocks were of great help to me. but i still miss watching them with you. i feel lethargic and i have to stop feeling this way and put a brave front for our kids. i know this is for us...for our future. i wish there was another way than having you leave all the time. i badly want to be with you...we all want to be with you. at home we are moving around like ghosts. feeling the huge difference when you are not around. you always made us laugh. always had a cheerful smile for everyone. i miss that. i miss you.

the day you left i worked when i got home. i know i was still on leave but i had to do something to not think about the empty void that hurts like hell inside. funny to still feel this way even if its the second time to send you away for work. silly as it may sound, mushy maybe....i really don't care. once again, you are my missing piece. it will be another difficult year here without you....but i will be waiting for you to come home....so that i will be whole again...one with you. meanwhile, i am sending a wife's prayer for Him to always keep you safe. you were the one with the stronger faith. the most God-fearing guy i have met in my life and i have always said na ikaw ang mas malakas kay Lord. may He always keep you away from temptation and enlighten you in every step you make.

hopefully, about the same time next year i can feel your arms around me again.....hihintayin kita.