courtroom drama

for the first time, i attended the 3rd arraignment re my dad's case in la union yesterday. it was a quick trip which i spent most of the time travelling. i can't afford to be on leave for two consecutive days. (unless i'm really really sick) so i had to make it a one day trip. it was also the first time i met the bus driver who was involved in my dad's accident.

how i felt seeing the man who killed my dad was unexplainable. i felt very weak maybe due to the intense anger that i cannot express. i could hardly breathe or even say a word to him. i was praying really hard for God to give me the strength to forgive this person. coz i know that mankind are innately good natured. i pictured the scene when my dad is pinned in his front wheels and he did not use his breaks but instead dragged him 12 meters away. maybe to make sure that my dad is dead which means less cost to him.

i was crying, trying hard to control hyperventilating and keeping my knees steady coz i feel like i was going to faint anytime soon. my companions did the talking for me. we are expecting that within the week they will settle what needs to be settled to make things easy for both parties. i don't think i can manage to go thru the whole courtroom drama. going thru the morbid details of how my dad died might kill me.

jeepney scene

i noticed a girl with dark shades this morning sitting in front of me. she kept sniffing and wiping her eyes. i knew she was upset about something as she kept looking on her cellphone the whole time. i don't know what came to me but suddenly i had this urge to pray for her. i knew she was about to go to work and i'm sure that it will take so much effort for her to go through her day. i sad a simple prayer for this stranger. that she be strong enough to cope with whatever she is going through, that God guide her through this trial. can't help but empathize with her its difficult enough to handle stress at work what more with personal problems bugging you through your day.