been sick since that conference in tagaytay last friday. freaky coz some signs of dengue are present. i was rushed by my hubby to med city the other day to be sure that this is not the deadly disease. i even went straight to work from tagaytay last saturday and i was feeling really weak already. tried again to work last monday but had to go on undertime as i felt like i was going to pass out. good i was able to make it home and was taken cared of by my good friend allyn.

i am now still at home a bit better. taking medications given by the doctor. a strong antibiotic, paracetamol for the fever and ibuprofen for the muscle pain. the flu strain can manifest in different forms these days. its getting scary every year. i should've listened to my doc to have flu vaccine shots. sometimes i'd like to think i am invincible. silly me.

the idle moments gets me thinking. okey maybe sometimes overanalyzing again. i have backed out from the SAP configuration training. after reading the contract i couldn't take the 2 and 1/2 years of bond and 200k fee if i resign within the bonding period. the contract was so one-sided. and it practically pissed me off.

it got me thinking....why am i working my ass off for a company who don't even care about the people who work for them? all they are concerned abt is income. what's the point of killing myself for work when it is proven that if someone dies in the line of duty they won't even care about your medical bills? too selfish! and too inhuman.

i have started sending my resume out again. i don't think i could be happy in this kind of environment. i have sacrificed time for my family already. and i am not getting any younger. acknowledging the importance of your workforce and giving better compensation is best to keep your employees happy. happy employees = happy customers = better income

chicken and egg logic really....sometimes, too much ambition can keep you blind from compassion. i'm working my way out of this....hopefully soon.