so much has happened yesterday. actually, let me start with thursday. early in the morning i had a heated argument over the phone with my younger sister about my dad's estate. (again!) this time it was really bad. my sisters even went as far as threatening to sue me. they flooded my mobile with rude text messages and threats. i was sobbing the whole morning. it was really embarassing coz the whole wing at the office could actually hear me raising my voice and banging the phone a number of times. i was so frustrated and helpless. but i had to learn to get over it fast coz i need to tackle a lot of problems at work as well.

anyway, i decided to get off early at work to meet my bestfriend at metrowalk - elbowroom. some of our friends were there to play poker, while my bestfriend and i decided to have a few bottles of raspberry vodka cruiser while talking about what happened to me in the morning. i couldn't help it while i was sharing the whole thing to her i was crying the whole time. buti na lang the bar was dark since there was a band playing. i don't know...i surrender everything to Him. i know i tried my best to work things out as fairly as possible. but with the way they are all treating me, i feel that its not worth it. i'd rather have nothing than go through this hell they've put me in.

so that was how my thursday went. i got home at 3 am so i was a bit late at work. arrived at 8:15. got on the elevator some people were discussing something about a fire. i thought it was the past. apparently, it was still going on. when i got to our floor (16th) as soon as the elevator door opened one of my staff was running in the lobby and told me to run fast. our floor was full of smoke. so i knew that what was discussed in the elevator was actually presently happening at the 15th floor. imagine my disgust on our ground floor guards who didn't have the initiative to stop people from going up the bldg. we had to use the fire escape which was already full of smoke. we were coughing the whole time and it triggered an asthma attack. by the time i got to the ground floor i had to inhale some medicine to ease my breathing.

the fire was fortunately stopped in time from getting worse. although they had to fix the electricity in the bldg. we were instructed to standby. the jollibee area was full of the buildings tenants. waited for the mall to open up so that the employees waited around in different areas. before i was about to join my team in roaming around the mall i was texted by our VP to attend a division head's meeting re SAP academy that was held at the other bldg. darn i thought i would be able to at least get to watch a movie, relax for once.... the meeting started at 10:30 and ended at 12:30. it was fun to watch these leaders, all smart and intelligent debating the whole time. no one was about to give in. hehehe. i thought better than to give a piece of my mind. we were all hungry and it was useless hearing their runaround on the issues. i thought they could be easily and simply handled if only they were humble enough to compromise. sigh...

at 2:30 there still was no electricity so we had an early time off. yipeeee, thought of a lot of things to steer my mind away from my problems....went to Mendez in Makati to have a foot scrub and a facial. i wanted to get a body spa as well but i was really sleepy since i only had 3 hours sleep. so i went home and had a good night's sleep.

today, nothing extraordinary. went to bulacan for my sideline. now i'm home and with my son. (he was succesful in bugging me yesterday ) i think i'm doing good right now. tired and stressed out...but i feel better. i know that He will guide me in whatever burden that i have now. i've gone through so much in my life...i know i can do it with His help. Friends, i need your prayers for me and my family. may we find peace and love in our hearts to forgive each other...to let go of the past. Dad, if you can hear me...help me please.