i know i've been slacking when it comes to updating my blog. i just can't seem to find the purpose in doing it anymore. i lost the fire...i lost the inspiration. at one time i simply can't bring myself to rant about anything meaningful. i didn't want to lose myself in a weblink. i am human, i feel, i hurt, i love. somehow i felt that some reduce my "being" in a website. and i hated it. i am more than this. i deserve more than this.

pffttt...okey, so i let that out. i guess being angry can start the fire burning. i didn't want it to be like this. but i can't seem to get through it. i know i should stop being frustrated at things that i can't control. but sometimes i can't help it. i thought silence can somehow make me learn to heal. as usual, being me, i just couldn't let it stride. some can just be so insensitive at another's needs.

maybe i am being too selfish or to selfless....i don't know. its tiring to always be the one to exert effort to make something work. maybe its time to just accept the fact that the special times shared in the past is gone with the wind. i should stop hanging on to something that wasn't there in the first place.

alright, i should be ending this now....ayoko na talaga!

"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greater accomplishment." - Ralph Waldo Emerson