i think i've taken in too much stress the past few weeks. and my physical body was the first one to give in. working overtime everyday and even on weekends plus so much stress without a chance to rest took a toll on me. so today, even if my heart was decided to go to work, my body didn't seem to agree. i've been feeling sick since yesterday and was restless the whole night. i tried to get up for work, but the fever and the body malaise just made me stay in bed. 

the morning's rest was good enough for me to be able to go online right now. would you believe that i was thinking of doing it half day? hahaha...i pity myself for being such a dedicated employee...forgetting about myself and my family in the process. i think i got burnt out already. i am just looking for a chance to find myself out of this messy thing called life i have.

i miss writing...i couldn't even post regularly on my blog. i've lost the fire to keep me burning. and i don't know where or how to find it. unrelentless drive to find that inspiration... and i think i've been looking in the wrong places. i'm tired...and i'm worn out. God please help me.