title borrowed from a friend. can't help but ask if love and joy can be bought somewhere. i think i'd go buy and use up all my savings if need be. hahaha...

on a sad note, i realized something last night. you can never make someone happy if the other person's happiness is expected from someone else. all efforts are futile no matter how much sacrifice or selflessness you have shown. painful realization. but it does happen. one just have to be receptive and open enough to the idea of getting hurt inspite of and despite of.

sometimes i wonder, what if we are made void of any feelings? it must've been easier to handle the bad news. but i think i've learned to take the risk. no more tears. (like the shampoo commercial ) i don't know if i just got numb from my painful past or i just learned to be more understanding of the situation. but until when i could take it, i really do not know.

at this point, i can say that i did my best but i guess my best wasn't good enough (yeah, right from the song...hehehe). shit happens! i can choose to feel crappy about it or i can just be the understanding friend that i am expected to be. i think i'd rather be the latter...no more tears!