not so good start of the week. you feel your bubble burst. and now you are lost once again. you never learn...you always seem to feel too much too soon. you wish you could be a little wiser in the nick of time. but you seem to always end up feeling really hurt and stupid. what could be worse is that you have to start from scratch again. you never learn...

you very well know that this could happen. then why do you seem so dumbstruck when the truth started to unravel. what is it with you that keeps drawing your heart to the same mess? its like you are being drawn by magnet. only to be shattered when you come in contact. you never learn...

ohhh you have a bitchy life.... 

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(Lindsay Lohan)

Do you see me
Do you feel me like I feel you
Call your number
I can not get through
You don't hear me and I dont understand
When I reach out I dont find your hand

Was it wasted words and did they mean a thing
And all our precious time but I still feel so in between

[Chorus:]
Some day I just keep pretending
That youll say dreaming of a diffrent ending
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had

I keep tell myself things can turn around with time
And if I wait it out you could always change your mind
Like a fairy tale where it works out in the end
Can I close my eyes have you lying here again
Then I come back down
Then I fade back in
Then I realize its just what might have been.

[chorus]

Am I a shadow on your wall
Am I anything at all
Anything to you
Am I a secret that you keep
Do you dream me while your sleeping after all
Some day I just keep pretending
That youll say dreaming of a diffrent ending
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had
That I never had
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had
You dont see me, you dont feel me like I feel you