princess_bride

"Friendship means understanding, not agreement. It means forgiveness, not forgetting. It means the memories last, even if the contact is lost."

I have an old friend. Not literally old but a friend since I was in grade 3 (about 10 yrs old). We were busmates. We never were classmates in elementary but I think we were in high school. We also went to the same school. In college we pursued different courses but we went to the same University. So we practically grew up together.

She have been there during my highs and lows. She was my constant. My person. I have always been protective of her and tell on those people who hurt her. That is until recently. She was cornering another friend in a heated discussion. I stepped in. Nag "mommy mode" ako. She didn't take it well. She felt slighted na parang pinagalitan ko sya like a child. Well, she was acting like a child then.

So we haven't been in speaking terms since then. I know that she was going through something. I was worried but this time she kept it to herself. (this was before our "encounter") Which was hardly the case in the past, so I was really concerned about her and wanted to be there for her. But she kept pushing people away. At the end of the day, I realized that as a friend you can only do so much. I respected her silence so I let her be.

But going through something doesn't excuse one from being rude and disrespectful of others. I didn't feel comfortable sitting around letting her do that to other people. So I had to say my piece. She didn't like it. Fast forward to last week, I sent her a message that I remember something and that I miss her. I wasn't going to apologize for anything. I just wanted to let her know that whatever she is going through I will just be here if she needs me.

What she did? "Seen" mode. I expected as much. I'm just sad that 35 years of friendship is gone just like that. But guess what? What she did was a message to me. She was a bearer of God's message. Well, her actions were. Any relationship go through difficult times. But that doesn't mean that you give up on what you have. If she wants to be alone, so be it. You can only pray for her that she be enlightened and will be able to go through her issues with God's guiding light.

I do wish her well. I love her still and I will always be a friend when she needs one.