after three years from my adrenalecotomy, i have undergone the most painful and most physically draining recovery in my whole 35 yrs of existence. got a very infected kidney therefore the need for the doctors not only to remove the stone but remove the whole left organ. good thing the right kidney is healthy. post-op was worse. hemoglobin dropped to 82, bp down to 80/50 and was having fever. it took 7 bags of blood transfusion and lots of IV meds for me not to be brought to the ICU. i was hanging by a thin thread, and i believe it was the miracle of prayer that lead me out of that predicament.

now looking back, i couldn't believe i had the tenacity to go through all the needles, the threading to get a vein, the ruptured veins, the criss-cross IV tubes, the heart monitor, the oxygen...the whole brouhaha....it passed by like a bad dream. but i remember while i was praying the Divine Mercy devotion....He said "Fear not, for I am here" and "the greater the sinner, the greater the person has the right to My mercy." it was such a humbling experience. to feel important inspite of being a sinner like everyone else. it was the faith of friends and family, their prayers and love that healed me. God is good all the time. i don't want to be preachy, coz i'm not the devout catholic i was raised to be. but i have faith that He has a forgiving heart and that anytime i deserve His loving mercy He will bestow it in His time.

i am still on my way to full recovery, but i have complete trust in Him that He will heal me completely soon. i have one more week to rest and will be back  to work on the 26th as i have to prepare for my business trip on the first week of Sept till the second. sighhh....can't let go of this career opportunity as it might not come again. there are so much to be thankful for....but i want to thank God for the gift of life. its not everyday that we get to appreciate something until the time when it can be taken away from us. i know i have not been a good child, but i am grateful for your Divine Mercy. Thank you Lord.