If my doctor told me I had only six minutes to live, I wouldn't brood. I'd type a little faster. ~ Isaac Asimov

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it seems like so many deaths happening around. i lost my lola (father-side) yesterday. she was 93. i honestly believe that she lived a full life. she was just waiting for her time. last time i saw her, i think that was two or three months ago she was still up and about. a bit slow moving though with very weak voice but still with sharp memory. she even led the divine mercy prayer during one of our evening prayer rituals.

two and a half years ago, she was so devastated about my dad's death. my doctor aunt had to give her shots to calm her down. so much grieving, so much pain. i guess its because it was sudden. but now somehow everybody is sort of expecting this will happen. she was sick with colon cancer but was fighting for her life for eight yrs.

the other night i dreamt of an aunt dying from an accident. it was scary coz this aunt was very close to me. i didn't have the heart to tell her. i just said she should be careful. apparently she had the same dream, that she died. i guess our dream was somehow connected to my lola's death one day later. she was my lola's caregiver.

i wouldn't know how i'd react if i was told i have six minutes to live i guess top of mind is i want to be with the people i love the most. after all this news of death, i came to think about my own. i'd like a simple ceremony, i don't want people oggling at my coffin so i'd prefer to be cremated. i'd like my ashes thrown in the sea to signify my intent to be one with nature.

there.....so that would mean i could have the six minutes less this stuff to think about. cool!