hi daddy,

i have poured out things before this entry. only to get an error when it was being uploaded in tabs. i guess, some things are meant to be kept in the heart.

i cannot make myself go through the agonizing process of pouring out my innermost feelings again. i think somehow i have connected with you...and maybe you didn't like it being public. i understand. its been two years daddy....two years of coping without having you around.

my life has always been one big drama class. you knew that. its one hell of a struggle i bet raising a child like me. i wasn't the quiet one. i always complained abt things. i always wanted to make people understand me. most especially you...

losing you was like losing half of me. ever since i was a child it was your attention that i wanted and seeked. hard headed child that iam...i did get your attention and disappointment i guess most times.

but look at me daddy....do i make you proud? battle scarred yet stronger. i persevered...maybe different from the little girl you raised...but i hope i am a better person right now.

thank you. i never thanked you enough for all the sacrifices you have made for us. for keeping me in school at all cost. it led me to having greater opportunities without needing to be "on top" of the ladder. i am happy where i am now.

i love you daddy and i miss you so much. i know in my heart that i will see you someday.

"Eternal rest grant unto Rufino B. Gapuz, Jr. O Lord and let perpetual light shine upon him. May he rest in peace. Amen!"