i remember those days when i was in my teenage years. i knew i was a pain in the ass to my parents. i used to hear my mom say that she wishes i wouldn't go thru the same heartaches when i have my own kids as she had with me.

and now my eldest daughter who just turned 13 last October 11 are already showing signs of being a pain in the butt like i was when i was her age. sighhh...and without my hubby to share the responsibility to discipline them its becoming more difficult for me to face this challenge. i try to put up a brave and strong facade in front of my kids. last night while chatting with my hubby, i broke down.

these are only part of the challenges of being a single parent right now. and i believe there is more to come. i have to have an iron fist when it comes to penalizing them for their mistakes. i have to control giving in to their pleas and cries to get back the luxuries i have cut them off from. my eldest is grounded from using the PC and i have confiscated her celfon as well.

its not too harsh when you learn that at her age she has 4 boyfriends that i have discovered. 2 are textmates and 2 are chatmates. imagine how technology can be so disadvantageous to us parents. i never had the same luxury before. not even a landline to use. pero nung panahon ko ako na ang pinaka "bad" sa mga siblings ko. just because of a boyfriend that i had since i was 15. (he is my hubby now)

i don't know how i can get through this. but my hubby said last night that all we can do now is pray that God give her guidance in her daily life. gosh mas religious pa sya sa akin. Ganon ata talaga. Lesson learned - the Golden Rule: Don't do unto others what you don't want others to do unto you. Sa madaling salita - karma!