i just sent hubby to the airport today. i am proud of myself that i was able to hold up my tears. i didn't want to make it more hard for him to say our goodbyes. its going to be different without him around.

our life as a couple wasn't a bed of roses. but we were able to pull it thru. there were times that we both wanted to give up. (i think for awhile we had) but i guess after all that we both have gone thru its not that easy to let go of the good things we both had together.

now after the feeling of him gone has sunk in, i decided to let go of the tears. i tried to sleep the day through. to somehow forget abt the sense of longingness. but i guess i can never escape the reality of him being away.

in a few weeks time i am going to say goodbye to long time friends that i have established while working for suncellular in four yrs. its going to be sad as well. but i guess for every goodbye there is always a new beginning to look forward to.

i am taking a new path. its not going to be easy....but i know that i have Him to look after me. He was the only One constant in my life. and i believe that everything was His doing. i was never that religious but i have faith in Him and i believe that miracles do happen...even to sinners like me.