early in the afternoon today i suddenly had this urge to look up for my baby sis' blog site. i miss her, i miss my family. we've been estranged for about 6 months after having a squabble over my dad's estate. i believe everything was done in bad taste. and hurtful words were thrown at me that i could not digest. being the eldest i believe i deserve a little respect.

i decided to remain silent amidst all the cursing and the harsh accusations. i've been disowned by my own mom for not signing a waiver that would mean giving up claim over all the properties left by my dad. not that i was being materialistic or what. i was just trying to protect the interest of my sisters and of course my kids. i just felt that being our mom she'd be generous enough to think of the future of her daughters and her grandchildren.

rancor filled all the text messages i have received from them. three against one. it wasn't supposed to be a war. i was accused of being treacherous and a lot of hurtful things. i can't even begin to think about them because it will just bring back those days when amidst the pressure at work i was crying during office hours after receiving messages from them that i did not even have the heart to reply to.

i have issued a special power of attorney to my 3rd sis. so that she'd be the one to facilitate the case i filed against the bus company and the driver who caused my dad's demise. it was all encompassing... meaning she can represent me in any sale, receipt of payment etc regarding my dad's estate. i hate fighting about money. i said this before and i will say it again. i'd rather be poor than have money and then be put in bad light by people who were supposed to be my flesh and blood. i can work to support my family. i have never even thought of claiming things that were not mine.

i was just standing up for what i knew was right. and i believe that it was what my dad would have wanted. everyone to have their fair share of what he left behind. there was not much really. so i can't really understand where all their blabbering is coming from.

no matter how much pain they have inflicted on me.... i still miss them. i miss hugging my baby sis. i wish someday they would be able to realize that i was standing up for them... for their future.