i have been dreaming about somebody quite often the past months. can't understand why. the dreams were clear and i could remember most of the details. i'd really like to understand what they were about. why he keeps on popping up during my sleep? i felt good that time...and when i awake, i bring the nice feeling around with me. i don't want to be hopeful again, its not right. i should be moving on.

but i think i have moved on. i'm ready to face him again clear of tears of the past. after all i am a friend and once a friend i always am one, even through the bad times. it was a special time, and i am thankful for it. i'm sure i will have something similar in the future. this time, no more gray areas...details crystal clear. i know i deserve that.  and for that i am optimistic that He will send me that person in the right time and the right situation.

meantime, i should just worry abt my health. drats been missing out a lot in my life. i am glad i have great bosses who understands what i'm going through. i think God made up for my family's inefficiencies. He gave me my kids and great friends. lovelife na lang ang kulang. hahaha...ang tao talaga...mapaghanap. tsk tsk tsk....