princess_bride

I have always been a believer of second chances, of a shot at "happy endings", of forgiveness, of unconditional love. But time and again, I find myself in a constant struggle to hang on to my beliefs. I wonder, is this really the love that I deserve? Or am I just being too idealistic and ignorant that I tend to look the other way? Maybe this is why I love to watch those kdramas, because it relives the happy moments for me. Only to realize, it has been a long time, is this just all lip service? Am I fooling myself that this is what love is supposed to be?

I always find myself, forgiving. I am quick to forget or maybe I just don't want to feel the pain anymore. So I'd rather forget what has been done. But until when am I going to allow people to treat me this way? I think I deserve my happy ending. But with this, is it ever going to happen? I hate fighting over petty things, over baseless mood swings, over things that can be discussed in a mild manner. I hate being threatened to be left alone. Because I can live on my own. I don't need this.  I just want to be free.