princess_bride

ok before i rant abt what i am supposed to rant about. i just need to say this - i am so thankful to have tabulas back. i did try wordpress. i still love how user-friendly tabulas is. so i do hope tabulas is back for good. roy, you should've heard my heartbreak when i saw the site was down and was not sure if it will be ever back again. so thank you for all your hardwork Roy. you've made a lot of people happy.

i regress, so fb has a way of slapping you with awful truths. like finding out how you have been lied to and used. while all along you felt it, and you thought it was someone else, its just funny how fate seems to play with you. same family different person. why was it always you who get the bad end of the bargain? so May 20 pictures just a few wks before my birthday. and fluffy pillows was June 23.  i knew something was different. 

so you've both moved on. and you've been trying to send a message to let that person know that you know and that it wasn't fair. but always ended up not sending it and you keep asking yourself, what's the use? it's been almost a year. what's done is done! you just can't understand why you keep letting this person hurt you. maybe because you hoped that he wasn't that bad. that it was just one of those painful experiences you have to learn from. but you were wrong. 

i could've wished you all the bad things in life. but that isn't me. there is what we call karmic justice. i will let the universe handle that. as for me, i have moved on. yes, i am hurt and its still painful. but adding you in fb was the first move for me to show that life must go on. i have been anything but good to you. i know i deserve better. 

so awful truths may not be so awful after all. life has a way of waking you up from your reverie. but you never stop dreaming for good things to come.