Waiting and aching
"Moreover, having to wait for another painfully reveals to us that we do not have control over the other. We cannot program others according to our expectations; we cannot manipulate others to fulfill our every desire or solicitation. We are inescapably vulnerable before the freedom of the other. And even though our intentions may be good and noble, we cannot impose them on the other, not even on those we love."
I guess that's the reason why I get frustrated. Why it was difficult for me to let go. It's true, I cannot force anything on another person. No matter how much love you've shown, it will never be enough unless the other party was willing to accept it and was willing to give away. It was a painful truth and I hope it won't take a lifetime for me to accept that there are just things that are not meant to be. No matter how hard you wish for or try to attain.
I have worked hard for what we had. Only to realize, it will never be enough. I will never be enough. And no matter how painful it was to let him go...I wanted him happy and that was what matters.
This is me saying goodbye. I may open my heart again to other people, but you will always have a space there that no one will ever get to replace. I love you, so I had to let you go. Stay happy!
“I finally understood what true love meant...love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be.”
― Nicholas Sparks, Dear John