it's funny how many times i have attempted leaving tabulas but never had the guts to stick to my decision. why? too many memories here...the same memories that make me want to quit writing. hahah...pathetic i know. its just that i feel that this space is where i can be myself without the fear of being judged by my family or friends. uhmm, well long time friends i suppose. well, anyway i'm back...and if i rant again about quiting don't mind me...its just one of those freaking days when my hormones are going haywire. hahah

one more thing i have realized while i was gone, my failed attempts to make a good design out of my layout doesn't really matter. what really matters is that i can write just about anything, and kahit walang magbasa or magcomment or kahit yung mga kakilala mo ayaw na magsulat...ok lang. maibuhos mo lang ang nasa loob mo. masabi mo lang yung masasaya at malulungkot na moments ng buhay mo. and these things you can read back on, ipaalala lang sayo yung mga foolish decisions mo or yung mga successful points ng career mo or yung happy times with your family. kahit sino pa ang mangiwan sayo or lumimot sayo...marami pa din ibang tao na alam ang kahalagahan mo. and they are the ones that really matter.

ayan nagemote tuloy ako...hehehe 2009 na ...there are some things that really don't change. sigh.

moving on, i am never really fond of making new year's resolutions that will frustrate me when i cannot keep them...but then again, what the heck who cares? here goes:

1) i want to have at least one trip here in the Phils. a place that i have never been to before...top of the list - bohol. there is something about this place that lures me to it. maghahanap na lang ako ng kaladkaring friendship na pwede ko kasabay maglakwatsa dun.

2) i want to take my kids out of the country...HK (Disneyland) or Dubai....whichever comes first. =)

3) i am going to take a shot at getting a job within the same Company but outside the Phils.

4) i am going to continue my gym workout. had to freeze my account because of my surgery last Sept.

5) i am going to lose weight.

6) i am going to start our family forced savings. something we cannot touch for a long long time.

7) i am going to buy a new refrigerator (whirlpool) gusto ko "no frost" this time. kakatamad magdefrost eh.

8) i am going to keep my tabulas no matter what....hahaha

9) i am getting my bunso from her lola and let her study together with her adings by June this year

10) i am going to prioritize things/ people/ events that really matter

wow that was a long list. hahaha....looks like i have to work overtime to accomplish all these. anyway, it seems most of them are doable...some things may change depending on the "family plan/ priorities" for the year. anyway, contrary to what has been predicted...being born in the year of the Ox...2009 is not a lucky year for me. buti na lang naniniwala ako...that we make our own fate. and i know that this is my lucky year.  Happy New Year everyone!