Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you

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i was in a cab this morning going to work when i got to listen to this song from my mobile phone. can't help but shed a tear. i miss you dad. this song is for you. we never had the chance to talk heart to heart after all the hurtful words we've said to each other. although our actions meant to be a peace gesture. i still hope i've said i'm sorry.

i've been trying to keep a brave front when it comes to your memory. i wanted so bad for you to move on to that place where you should really be. the christmas season is another reason for us to miss you all the more. i remember last year you took the kids out for shopping and i was not around because i was at work.

come to think of it, there were a lot of times when you come for a visit i would only get to see you late when i get back from work. i wish i could've spent more time with you. i wish i could share my pain with my siblings and with mom. but your passing on lead to us drifiting apart because of things i don't have control over.

i know i could cry all i want and still things will never be the same. but let me release this pain one last time. forgive my tears dad, its insane for me to think that i could just move on after 11 months of grieving. i am immensely missing you right now daddy. pls watch over me.
Currently feeling: guilty
Posted by princess_bride on December 20, 2006 at 04:26 PM | 2 danced with me
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Comment posted on December 21st, 2006 at 04:31 AM
*hugs, hugs, hugs*

God bless you, sis.
Comment posted on December 21st, 2006 at 10:41 AM
thanks balasang. *hugs*