i'm at work and i get dizzy spells from time to time. still weak from this viral infection i got somewhere. geezzz if not for my team who managed to cover up for me while i was gone, my department would've fallen apart big time. my boss is very understanding and supportive though. contrary to the "system" that i was ranting about yesterday. she signed a bunch of docs on my behalf despite being in the middle of a whole day budget deliberation with our CEO.

she can be a blessing at times really. at times she can bitch around, but i totally understand that she is only being pressured by the "owner" to deliver results. sometimes without even considering the circumstances that surrounds the issue. howell, chain reaction naman talaga yan. last week, i totally blew it as well and had to call an emergency meeting para maglabas ng "sungay at buntot". sometimes kse when they know that you are a softie they tend to take things for granted.

well, i had to put my foot down and let them know who's the boss. kelangan magtanda so you have to stress your point talaga. matagal naman ako magalit eh...once is excusable, but the second time around is not acceptable. people do have short memories. minsan kelangan mo pa magalit para mapilitan sila maalala kung ano ang tama at mali. command responsibility, their error is my error as well. so i have to remind them to give me a chance to save their ass. but if they will self insinuate themselves at the whole departments expense, well that's a different story altogether.

i said, i'd give up this pa "martyr" syndrome when it comes to work. i promised not to be too involved and to take long leave from work to prove my point. but on the other had, i realized nobody is indispensable, not even me. i worked hard to get to where i am now and i am not about to tarnish my credibility of being a professional just because i am pissed off at the "system". while i am here, i have to give my best and be the professional that i am. i will leave with my integrity and credibility intact as these comprises my whole character.

this is me....i could rant and rave all i want, but at the end of the day i will still deliver my best and remember that i am doing this for the greater good.