i was actually contemplating on leaving this space again. ewan ko ba but sometimes pag naiinis talaga ako i get impulsive with my decisions. raging hormones i guess. ewan ko nauubusan na din ako ng excuses para sa sarili ko.

i remember the circumstances when i left my original tabs blog. the objective was to stay away from trouble. well, i guess trouble has its own weird way of finding me. so maybe its a matter of how i should deal with what's at hand.

honestly, give up na ako. yes, to you whom i thought was nice and kind enough to be a friend. tama ka you've changed so much since that day i found out abt stuff. i cannot understand why i still keep putting up with you. maybe its the promise of friendship no matter what.

siguro nga its true that promises are meant to be broken. and friendships are supposed to be a two-way thing. gusto ko magalit, i wanna give you a piece of how i feel. kaya lang i realized that its useless. apparently, you are no different from them.

sometimes, iniisip ko why am i freaking out like this? bitter ba ako? well, hindi naman siguro. i guess its just frustrating to invest emotionally into something that you know you can't benefit anything from.

yes, you are insensitive and selfish and a lot of things. i am just incredibly pissed at how you make me feel like trash. i deserve better than this. i wish i have never met you. i wish i could erase that part of my past with you.

i hate myself for being stupidly hopeful of making the friendhship work....and most of all, i hate you.


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sorry friends i just needed to blurt that out. sasabog na kse ako eh.