i started out writing about how lonely and empty i feel right now. it was so heart wrenching that i decided to delete it instead. i want to write about the good things. i choose to write about the happy moments.

first of all, of how proud a mom i am of my kids. for giving their best in school. achieving awards that definitely made up for all the difficult times i had working more than 12 hours a day, 6 days a week. the smiles and the gratitude they have expressed were enough to keep me going. in sickness and in health, i should go on working for their future.

another good news, i've been promoted to the next level. they gave me a raise commensurate to the experience and added bonus for being a SAP power user. not bad. the responsibility is pretty much the same. (i think or i'd like to believe so...wehehehe) although the paperwork doubled as i was assigned OIC while my boss is taking a two-month leave. i never found approving documents an attractive task. i like doing the analysis and preparing the reports better. however, it is inevitable. additional tasks means additonal working time and less time for my kids. something has to give for the others benefit. sigh.

yes, i am thankful for receiving these blessings. maybe this is my purpose in life. to raise my kids as God fearing and responsible individuals. i hope i can be successful in doing this. and when i am.....in the long run.....when they get to have their own families....what about me? could'nt help being a bit selfish about my own happiness. my bad.