amidst the current merry mood of the season, i find myself in a rut. feeling shitty most of the time. taking crap from people at work. sometimes it really gets to you. since when did competition became favorable to those who were less competent? i hate office politicking. argghhh!!!!

i tried looking at the brighter side of things. but its really eating me up. sometimes you think that reaching out to people could ease the burden...but its true, without any hand to hold onto you just slip away. you fall way down...and hit dirt.  i just realized that you never get solution to your issues from other people. its only thy self that you can depend upon and nobody else. sad but true.

i wanna get out of this rut. i am working my way out....sigh...