i wasn't able to enjoy the vacation much. spent most of the time with eyes shut simply because of stupidity. left my contact lens on when i slept 2 nights ago. and this is what i get. a very irritated left eye. i could hardly keep it open for a long time.

i was hoping with eyes this way i could spend the time sleeping to make up for overworking the past few days. but lo and behold, my mind is often wide awake in the wee hours of the morning. drastic changes around me makes me uneasy. mostly abt work. i've been putting off a change in environment for a long while.

i was giving myself and the Company more time to "jive". but i guess different needs and goals makes me want to move on. i can't find it here moreso even being parallel with what i have in mind in the next five years. time is gold, i can't afford that much time. i need to act fast. i do have a handful of things to look forward to in the horizon. but i have to be really careful with my decision. coz i want this to be something long term, worthwhile and productive.

well, i hope things do work out for me soon. i'm tired of getting stuck in this rut. pretending that things will get better when its not. being happy in a company is a two-way thing. just like any relationship. the progressive company has to be challenging, stimulating and supportive of its employees and their achievements. it should be a safe place to work in and it treats its employees fairly. people enjoy working there and give their best to achieve the company's goals and targets.

now that is definitely my ideal company. but of course, one cannot expect to get the whole package. well, at least knowing that there would be continuous learning i feel that more than the financial package this is really what i am after. i am keeping my fingers crossed, and abundant prayers at hand to get me through this. wish me luck!