when i was young i used to hang out on top of our roof at home. a quiet place to do some thinking. sometimes i write poems or letters. it was basically my escape route from my jumbled life. i was one messed up kid back then. it could be traced to a lot of things - but maybe my raging hormones as a growing up kid contributed to its mess. i dunno.

i loved staring at the sky. watching the clouds change formation. and moving slowly around. the way the sky change colors from bright orange to darkness during sunset. the twinkling stars above and the magical moon. and when i get lucky - a shooting star that makes me wish of things i wanted to happen.

sky watching gets better when i do it in the province. everything seems so near. especially at night. its like i could easily pick out my favorite star and draw the moon closer as if it was mine to decide. during rainy days i love feeling the raindrops on my skin. its like nature is my best friend. and God created such an amazing thing for us to appreciate.

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haven't done sky watching for a very long time now. must've grown out of the activity. but no, i doubt it that its something to grow out of. its such a peaceful and soulful exercise. i'd want to do it everyday if i can. well God found a way to remind me of His wonderful gift. I had a view of the sky from my hospital bed. it was fun to watch the clouds again with different formations. some were fluffy some were thin, some were thick and so white and some were like cotton candy. it was a grand sight.

i was made to realize how much He has given us to remind us of His presence. that life is short and that all kinds of pain, whether physical or emotional,  are instruments to wake us up from our wrapped up and selfish personas. God heals...and He healed me. again and again it seems. i am just thankful that i am alive and almost well. i know deep in my heart that all these happened for a reason. i am glad that His forgiving heart welcomed me back... 

Currently listening to: beautiful - velcro
Currently feeling: thankful
Posted by princess_bride on September 17, 2005 at 01:11 AM | 2 danced with me
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Comment posted on September 20th, 2005 at 08:09 PM
i used to hang out on top of our roof, too. we really must be soulmates.
Comment posted on September 22nd, 2005 at 04:10 PM
yes, we certainly are sistah. ;-)