am i a survivor? battle scared and torn, wounded yet still strong, afraid perhaps that maybe i'm not what i think i am? maybe i'm a fool pushed into adversity because of madness. who knows what i can and cannot do? i am a fool in love.

maybe if i were dead, it wouldn't hurt as much. i'm just very afraid. tears won't even fall anymore. wala na akong mailabas. parang sirang sira na ako. kawawa naman ako. walang makapagtyaga sa akin. ubos na ang luha ko. puro takot na lang ang nararamdaman ko. i can't feel anything else...

....i'm afraid of being alone....